There is a woman at my church who lost about 75 lbs. a couple of years ago on Weight Watchers. She was very public about it. She posted her weekly weigh ins on facebook. I don't know her very well, but I always knew how her weigh ins went. I noticed yesterday that she's gained quite a bit of weight back.
Another church lady, a very good friend of mine, has lost and regained at least that much twice since I've known her. She's getting ready to walk/run the Eugene Marathon and I couldn't be prouder of her for going for it even though I know she's frustrated with being overweight again.
Regaining the weight is my biggest fear right now, especially given what I've experienced with seeing my own weight loss peter off. My plan before this happened was to lose weight without dieting until my body plateaued, which I envisioned would happen when I weighed about 150 - 160 or so. I imagined that I'd lose until my caloric intake level caught up with what my body needed to maintain weight. I even thought maybe I'd be able to eat a little more than I had been eating. I thought I'd be able to have a snack or a coffee drink when I wanted them instead of when I planned to have them. It could be a spontaneous thing.
And then I stopped losing weight at about 178 lbs. This isn't a bad weight for me. I'm tall and can carry it off. I am wearing a size 12 pants and size medium shirts. But before I gave up on the idea of more weight loss, I wanted to track my food for a while and see where I was at. So I've done that and I've seen that I was eating a little bit more than I thought I was. I've tried to up my exercise and protein intake too. I suspect I'll probably have a good weigh in on Wednesday.
But I feel like I'm dieting.
Not "dieting" dieting, but tracking my food and weighing and measuring, dieting. Trying to eat less, dieting. Trying to lose weight, dieting. I don't want to diet because I don't believe it is sustainable. I'm afraid I'll lose weight and then have to eat less to maintain it. Or if I go back to eating the way I was eating before I plateaued, I may gain some weight back. Like my friends from church who lost weight by dieting and then regained it when they quit dieting.
I'm not going to log my food for the rest of my life. What do you guys think? Am I setting myself up for failure down the road?