Look, I'm posting two days in a row! In a comment on my last post, someone suggested that I talk about things that are going on in my life like work, kids, etc. to give me something to write about (other than how I have nothing to write about).
As it turns out, the new coach's daughter plays the same position as Caelyn, goalie. We weren't worried about it because Caelyn is a really good goalie and they both played other positions too. Generally you switch goalies at half-time anyways so two kids can share the position. Except the coach never put Caelyn in as goalie. Okay. We are team players. I let the assistant coach know I wasn't too happy about it and I told Caelyn to let the coach know she wanted to play goalie sometimes.
The thing is that the coach's daughter wasn't as good as Caelyn in goal, but she was a little snot. She told Caelyn that she was an All-Star player and could play several different positions. She was okay in several positions and was a pretty good goalie, but still. I heard her yell at another kid in practice for not kicking the ball straight at her. By the end of the season, Caelyn's confidence was shot. This coach did not appreciate her and he made her feel badly about herself. Asshole.
Caelyn usually plays indoor soccer in the winter so we found her a new team to play on for the indoor season. She was happier and had fun. Indoor soccer is just for fun - there are no practices, just a game once a week. The problem was that the team sucked! I think the lost all the games but one or two. Luckily they made a better Spring team and they actually had an undefeated season in the Spring! Caelyn was the starting goalie. She played in various defensive positions for half of the games. And the put her on the tournament team for Memorial Day.
The first tournament game ended in a tie which means they have a shoot out to determine the winner. A shoot out is where they line the kids up and they get five penalty shots directly at the goal with only the goalie to stop them. Caelyn was the goalie for the shoot out and she even got to take a shot on the opposing team's goalie (which she made). Needless to say, she won the shoot out by stopping more shots AND by kicking one in on the other team too! They won two of their games and lost two. I think they finished 5 of the 7 teams in the tournament, but it was a redemption of sorts!
I can't believe I care this much about 5th grade soccer...Actually what I really care about is my daughter and her happiness and that assholes don't hurt her.
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
That's how it has become for me and this blog.
I used to write almost daily. I looked forward to writing and checking in with all of you. Then my posts became less frequent. I had less to say about weight loss and my Lap-band. But I'd still stop in and smile and nod from time to time. But somehow I started actively avoiding my blog and I don't really know why.
True, I lost all my weight and got to goal. In fact I lost another 15 lbs. after I hit goal. Also true that I regained some weight over the holidays and have spent the last six months losing a bit and then regaining. I'm still under goal, but I'm about 10 lbs. from where I was and it is frustrating. Some of my clothes are tighter than I'd like them to be.
I have found myself going back to what I used to do: dieting. And then I realized what I was doing and I quit it and I lost several lbs. I felt good and was confident that I'd be back at my previous weight. And then I had about three weeks of not-so-great eating. And my weight didn't just creep up. It SHOT up! Now I'm back where I was in January when I started trying to lose the holiday weight.
I've been eating well for several days. I know what works. I need to eat three meals a day with only planned snacks in between. I can't "go on a diet" or my brain freaks out and I start binging and starving.
I had a good long time where weight loss was easy. I also enjoyed several months of easy maintenance. If I slipped up, it didn't seem to be noted on the scale. Not the case these days.