Wednesday, May 30, 2012
That's how it has become for me and this blog.
I used to write almost daily. I looked forward to writing and checking in with all of you. Then my posts became less frequent. I had less to say about weight loss and my Lap-band. But I'd still stop in and smile and nod from time to time. But somehow I started actively avoiding my blog and I don't really know why.
True, I lost all my weight and got to goal. In fact I lost another 15 lbs. after I hit goal. Also true that I regained some weight over the holidays and have spent the last six months losing a bit and then regaining. I'm still under goal, but I'm about 10 lbs. from where I was and it is frustrating. Some of my clothes are tighter than I'd like them to be.
I have found myself going back to what I used to do: dieting. And then I realized what I was doing and I quit it and I lost several lbs. I felt good and was confident that I'd be back at my previous weight. And then I had about three weeks of not-so-great eating. And my weight didn't just creep up. It SHOT up! Now I'm back where I was in January when I started trying to lose the holiday weight.
I've been eating well for several days. I know what works. I need to eat three meals a day with only planned snacks in between. I can't "go on a diet" or my brain freaks out and I start binging and starving.
I had a good long time where weight loss was easy. I also enjoyed several months of easy maintenance. If I slipped up, it didn't seem to be noted on the scale. Not the case these days.