I've been logging my food for a few weeks in an effort to jump-start my weight loss. You probably remember that I've been bitching about it a bit on my blog. I really don't mind logging my food except for the fact that it makes me feel like I'm dieting. Yesterday is a perfect example because we had a pot luck at church. I have no idea how to log what I ate. I feel like I didn't overeat. I put a tablespoon or so of each thing I want on my plate plus a half cup of the vegetarian baked beans I brought and then nibbled on everything. I ate about half of what was on my plate - probably a cup of food in total. I also had a piece of pie.
But for some reason when I got home I ate some Hershey Kisses that they were handing out at the potluck. There were four of them in a little bag. I think the reason I ate them was that I knew I couldn't log my food and I felt like, "Well, screw it!". It was the classic reaction to a release of the "rules" that I've experienced 100 times in the past. I would follow the diet faithfully, but if something different came up that didn't jive with the diet rules, I'd just eat whatever I wanted.
It is very weird to see how far I've come and then realize how close I still am to the person I used to be. For the record, I know my total day's calories were reasonable. I didn't continue overeating after the Kisses. I also got a fair amount of exercise. I don't feel bad or guilty about what happened. I just think it is interesting and maybe a little scary to think that I can so easily slip back into old habits.