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Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Shaky

That's how I feel in the mornings.  Shaky.  Weak.  But not hungry.

Hunger is a virtual stranger these days.  It is weird, really.  When I realize I am feeling shaky and I still can't come up with a food I want to eat, it occurs to me how strange it is not to feel hungry in these moments.  Even weirder is to not really want to eat even though I know my body needs fuel.

I was on vacation last week so my schedule was all messed up.  When I am at work, I typically eat three meals a day, but on weekends and (apparently) vacations, I drop down to two meals a day.  I didn't plan to do that.  It just sort of happened.  And after several days of two meals a day, I noticed I was shaky in the morning.  Shaky and my brain felt sort of crazed.  I would try to think of something I wanted to eat and then be unable to come up with anything.  Except for toffee.  That always sounded good.  

What is weird to me about this is that I never would have thought pre-band that hunger was a problem for me.  Or that not being hungry would cause me to eat less.  I thought my eating had little to do with my hunger.  I ate when I wasn't hungry.  I stopped eating when I was way-past full.  I ate because I wanted food.  I ate because I was bored, tired, angry, stressed, happy.  But when I got good restriction with my lap-band and my hunger was so greatly diminished, I lost my preoccupation with food.  I lost the obsession.  Eating has become something I HAVE to do rather than something I constantly WANT to do.

It is weird.

10 comments:

Kristin said...

Great observation, Amanda. You are in the textbook green zone, and you're making the most of it! Just make sure you're keeping up with your protein. Who needs more hair falling out, right?

Bonnie said...

I am so freaking jealous!

Justawallflower said...

This really is a great observation. I still have a hard time, even with the restriction I do have now, imagining that some day I may have to make myself eat! Wow, boggles my mind!

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Amanda said...

"I ate because I wanted food."

I can so relate to that, Amanda. I can not wait till I am in the same boat as you. When I don't want to eat. Not that I think shaky is good either.

I find myself saying this a lot recently in replies...I can't wait till I feel this way or that way!

tessierose said...

That's amazing! Although, it has happened to me, where I forget to eat and nothing appeals to me, it's not an everyday thing, I wish it was, I think.

~Lisa~ said...

Ohhhhhhhh, I cannot WAIT to get there!!

Lap Band Gal said...

Thanks for this post..the less eating on the weekends is totally what I've been going through these past 2+ weeks...how wierd! I like it, but wierd!

Annie said...

Sorry you are feeling shaky, but how awesome is it to forget about food?! Do you mind if I ask how much you have in your band? I know it's an individual thing, but I am curious to see how filled people are who are in the green zone.

Happy New Year!

{deflated notions} said...

I am six months post op and I am not there. I am sad!

Sherry said...

Hmmmm...can I be you for a few days? Looking at cookies makes me hungry.