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Friday, May 28, 2010

How low can you go?

I wish I could report that my funk has completely lifted, but the truth is I am still struggling. To make matters worse, my fella and I had an argument yesterday and then I got frustrated with my daughter and sent her to bed early. All this after we'd gone out as a family to see Alice in Wonderland at the $1.50 theater. It was supposed to be a fun, special evening and ended up being a big ol' bag of crap!

Mostly my stresses are financial these days. My budget is stretched so thin it is pretty much see-through! I just don't see how I'm going to be able to avoid making some cuts. So what should it be? Food? Health insurance?

Of course I wouldn't have to cut anything if my fella could find a job. He was a student and worked part-time until the first of the year. I wish he could figure out what he wants to be when he grows up! It is so hard for me to go to work every day while he stays home. He is really good about taking care of the garden and the chickens, but he doesn't do any other yard or housework consistantly. That all gets left for me! I am trying to be patient and supportive, but I'm afraid it is all coming out as resentful and frustration. Not my best look.

So that is me today. I know the blahs are going around Blogland and many of you are right here with me. Let's hope June brings some positive changes and some nice weather!

12 comments:

Pamela E. Williams said...

You get a big ole (((HUG))) from me Amanda.

Stay strong, meditate or go for a walk when things get rough.

It will work out.

MandaPanda said...

Ugh. Finances...I hear ya on this one. My hubby went to law school which brought on TONS Of student loans only to realize he doesn't want to be a lawyer. The fact is...there comes a time in everyone's lives where we just have to suck it up and be responsible. I'm not passionate about my job but it pays the bills and in this economy, we all just gotta take what we can get. Just my 2 cents. Hope it all works out!

Alison said...

Must be really hard, i'm afraid that i'd be terribly resentful, think that you're being fairly calm about it.

Miss Vickie "The Queen Bee" said...

Hang in there, this too shall pass. Finances are always difficult. It will all work out, I promise!

tessierose said...

Hang in there Amanda! Money problems are so disruptive to your overall peace of mind. And, I know the economy is bad, but there's got to be something that he could be doing, even if part-time, and if not, I think cleaning would certainly be in order. I hope things get better! Thanks for your sweet comment on my blog today, I feel the same way about you. I'm thinking about you and sending good vibes your way.

amandakiska said...

I love you all!

workinprogress said...

Awww... that's rough.

No advice - just *hugs*.

Linda said...

Sorry things are rough right now Amanda. I agree I would be very frustrated in the same situation. Money problems can really depress you - believe me I think I gained about 70 pounds form 2005 - 2008 because of some of our troubles.
xxxxLinda

P.S. - Finally got your package off - so maybe some "new to you" clothes will cheer you up a bit.

Katie J said...

I know that feeling too. My guy does not work a traditional job and I basically footed the bill for a few years. He does contribute now and also got an inheritance which helped us out A LOT. The good thing is he does the household stuff so that makes a big difference.

I don't know your story but I would let your fella know that it is NOT acceptable for you to bear the burden of supporting him. The very LEAST he could do is clean the house and do the laundry. He would expect you to do it wouldn't he? JMHO...

Sandy Lee said...

Sending you some {{{HUGS}}}. This was what I mentioned about things getting rough at times with a marriage (or partner). All I can say is that they always get better. But you can feel down if you like. We're here to listen.

And my verification word was: farke

Girl Bandit said...

Yes that is tough...if he is at home I think he should be doing the bulk of the wrok...meals, cleaning, washing and ironing....I don't blame you for the resentment!! Big ((hugs))

Bonnie said...

Personally I think you should be feeling resentful and frustrated right now. Is he looking for a job? Even if he doesn't know what he wants to be, he should be doing something to bring money in - or at the very least doing all the chores. Just sit him down and tell him all your blogland sisters think he needs to step up. I'm sure that would go over well. In all seriousness, my husband is self employed and we had some lean years (sometimes still have lean months) so I know how stressful money issues can be. Sorry you are going through them.