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Friday, April 30, 2010

Fill #2

I had my second fill today - 1 cc to give me a total of 2.7 cc's. Everything went really well. I'm hoping for some good restriction. It would be nice to not have to do all the work myself.

So far so good - I had some thin soup and I feel stuffed. I have that weird neck/shoulder pain that I get if I eat too fast or eat too much and all I've had is soup.

I've also been thinking about my less-than-stellar weigh in this week. I wrote on Wednesday that I had only lost one pound (.45 Kg.) which brings my grand total to 35.8 lbs. (16.24 Kg.) since 2/12/10. I had been losing 3-4 lbs. (1.36 - 1.81 Kg.) per week three weeks of the month (I skip one week - my bye week) so a one pound loss was kind of discouraging.

I've been overweight for seven years and during that time weight loss has been sooooo difficult. The last time I went on a "diet" I lost 25 lbs. in six months. Now some would look at that and say that it shouldn't matter how long it takes, a loss is a loss. But for me when I was in that space, it was almost painful to lose so slowly. And because the losses were so small, any extra calories - from a meal out, a birthday party, whatever - would set me back a whole week without a loss.

I always had times where I would diet and not lose any weight at all - for no reason that I could figure out. All those years of frustration were so horrible. I had a serious aversion to even talking about trying to lose weight. So that one lb. sort of triggers that desperation and frustration.

Since getting the lap band, my weight loss has been pretty good and fast (other than the bye week). I realize now that my prior efforts failed because I was just eating too much. On Weight Watchers I was told to eat about 1,800 calories a day. Now I try to eat 1,200 - 1,300 calories a day. I hope this fill will allow me to drop that amount down, especially if my weigh loss is slowing down. So I'd like to fast forward through the week and get to my next weigh in.

Have a great weekend! They are calling for nice weather here in the Pac NW. Good thing because my daughter has soccer games all weekend.

9 comments:

Jacquie said...

I'm going for my fill on Monday, first one! We will both have a great week, I can feel it. What size band do you have Amanda?

Jenny said...

Enjoy her soccer games!

Jen from Oregon said...

YAY! for fills and nice weather... we are due some nice sunny days here in Oregon don't you think?
Enjoy!

amandakiska said...

Jacquie - It holds 4 cc's.

Jen - TOTALLY!!!

Jacquie said...

Mine too! I wonder why most peeps that had their surgery in the states have bands that hold larger amounts.

Andrew said...

Good luck on the fill...

Bonnie said...

Congrats on your fill. Have a good weekend.

Fiona said...

Amanda I totally understand your frustration. Most of my weight loss was on the pre op diet and I had my first fill last week. Since then I have been having approx 600cals a day. My weight has gone up and down all week and I have finished up one pound heavier than I started????? But its a long term thing and unlike the previous diets where we gained it all back, those lost pounds should be gone for good. Wont it be fun looking back on all these posts two years from now? :-)

Girl Bandit said...

Great insight and it is funny how our old insecurites or issues arise when the scale is not moving. But I think identifying and learning from it will help us move forward. you are going great :)