A mixed bag

My dad came to visit yesterday afternoon and give me and my daughter guitar lessons. We have a deal where I give him gas money and feed him in exchange for the lessons (he lives 100 miles away). Usually my sister and her (large) family come too. Last night she agreed to provide dinner (we try to take turns). She brought stuff to make sandwiches. I was supposed to be on mushies after my fill Wednesday. Do sandwiches count as mushies? Remember that my dad doesn’t know about the lap band.

I decided I’d have a sandwich because I was LITERALLY starving. I biked to work again yesterday and home which is about six miles all together. All I had to eat all day was a protein drink and a cup of soup and part of an Orange Julius (Couldn’t finish it all – YES!). I tried these bagels my sister got at Costco. They are regular bagel size, but much thinner and only 110 calories (4 grams of protein). I thought I’d only be able to eat half the sandwich and some chips but I ate the WHOLE thing. I did start feeling full part way through, but I pressed on and finished it. I figured the entire sandwich at 500 calories so even with the chips, I was fine for the day calorie-wise, but I was a little surprised I could eat the whole thing after my fill. I was also (for the first time) continuing to eat after I got my first “full” signal because the damn thing tasted so good and I was f-ing STARVING!

So I am not really sure how to feel about it. On one hand it is no big deal. I stayed on goal with the calories for the day. With the exercise, I did even better. But on the other hand, I kept eating when I probably should have stopped. And I’m kind of bummed that I didn’t get much restriction. There have been several times where I felt like I couldn’t physically eat any more. Yesterday I didn’t feel like that. The up-side is that I think this will help me be better prepared for Easter Dinner. I know I need to be diligent and really pay attention so I don’t over do it.