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Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Do you ever have one of those days? Or weeks? Or lifetimes?

My iPod won't turn on this morning. I woke up more than an hour early and couldn't get back to sleep. I thought I looked cute yesterday and took a photo of myself in a full-length mirror. I looked at the photo. YUCK! Not so cute after all. I've wanted to eat for the last three or four days. I'm broke. My kids argue too much. My daughter says she might not to play soccer anymore. My fella has been unemployed since December. My boss is in town and every time he sees me he says, "Are you leaving early? Don't you work until 6:00 PM?" No. I've worked 9:00 to 5:00 for years, but thanks for automatically looking for something to criticize every time you see me. Tomorrow is my weigh-day and I'm scared. I don't have health insurance. My nephew's in jail. I'm worried about my mom. I hate my job. I'm afraid to find a new job. I'm not happy in my relationship.

So basically everything sucks. That's all.

19 comments:

Colls said...

I think everyone has these times where NOTHING seems right. It sucks - that's all there is to say - it sucks. I am sorry you are having a rough time right now. I am sending out good vibes for you - I hope you can feel them! <3

Joia said...

Aw honey...I could go on and on about all the GOOD things to treasure in your life, but I know that you know what they are (albeit deep down)! For now? I'll just send you a :::hug::: and keep cheering you on to better times!

Pie said...

It all ebbs and flows. When a few things get you down, all of a sudden you notice every little thing that's going wrong. When you're feelin' good, you have that sense of peace that no matter what your problems, you can handle them. Your issues are no bigger or worse today than yesterday, it's just your mindset is a little off temporarily. This happens to me on a routine basis. It wakes m up in the middle of the night. It sucks. I wish there was an instant "happy" switch. If you find one, let me know?

-Grace- said...

I'm sorry, Amanda. *HUGS*

tessierose said...

Hang in there Amanda! I hate when things are like that, I hope it helps a little to know there are a lot of us out here who really care about you! Big Hug!

Heather said...

Wow what a day! You need <> Remember sometimes in life you have to say F*ck it and just move on... Resort yourself to the fact that it will eventually get better and happiness will be upon you.

Sherry said...

Some days we do feel like that. The good news is that tomorrow is another. eye on the prize my dear.

Lonicera said...

All these unsatisfactory aspects of your life - have you divided them into what you can control and what you can't? Then distill the first list down to just one which will have a positive effect on all the rest, so that you won't have to think about controlling them or not. And what do you get? For my money, it's the fact that you can eventually control your weight with the help of your lapband - which will make you feel infinitely better... and stronger.

Little steps - it's the only way I can cope with too many things that aren't right. And here is the blogosphere you have so many people rooting for you Amanda. It's wonderful how you get to know people 'virtually', yet you care about their ups and downs as much as though you were seeing them face to face.

Do hope you're feeling better from several hours ago when you wrote your post.

Caroline

Blossom said...

Sometimes it just feels as if the universe is conspiring against you! I know the feeling. Usually things look better in the morning. I hope they do!

Lynda said...

I'm not going to try to tell you how to fix this--only you know what's right for you. I just want to say that we're here, and we care...lots! Hugs to you!
Lynda

Janelle said...

Sometimes life comes at you faster than you think you can handle it... I am sure we have all had times in our life when nothing seems to be right. I am sorry you are in the middle of one of those times!! I hope it gets better soon and I hope the scale is nice to you so at least you will have that.

workinprogress said...

Goodness - that sounds rough.

*hugs*

Linda said...

Oh yes I have - today maybe.
It always seems to come at once, I hope it turns around.

Drazil said...

Oh my sweets - please hang in there and know you are not alone. I wish I could fix it all for you with my magic wand....but I lost the damn thing. You have to go through the rain to get to the rainbow and you have to believe you're worth it. Take your power back - make some decisions - this is YOUR life and you determine its destiny. Loves you.

Cindylew said...

Tomorrow will be better cupcake.
Keep that chin up.

Jacquie said...

Hugs Amanda.

Seeing in colour said...

stay strong your amaazing! dont forget that.

Michelle said...

Hugs, Keep your chin up. Things will get better. Will send some good vibes your way!

ChristineKingery said...

I can so relate to some of your woes. But remember this: You're worth it. You're worth all the effort you're putting into weight loss. You're worth receiving love from the people around you. You're lucky. You're fortunate. Don't forget all the positive things!

I hope that today is a little bit of a better day! HUGS!
Christine
www.phoenixrevolution.net