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Showing posts with label sabotage. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sabotage. Show all posts

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Thank you!

Thank you all for your support yesterday. I read new comments throughout the day and it made me feel so good. A couple times I had tears in my eyes. I would love to go get that margarita, Genise. And several of you sent bad ju-ju and offers of vandalism to those people who own that rental house. Stephanie sent a private email which was so sweet. You guys are awesome and I am overwhelmed by your concern!

For the first time in a long time, I really wanted to binge last night. I had a weird dinner (crackers & peanut butter), but I managed to resist the urge to binge. Instead I read a book (Dan Brown's newest) and watched Modern Family (soooo funny!) and went to bed.

I'm getting my second fill tomorrow morning. For some reason, I am reluctant to have fills. I don't know why. Most of you are always clamoring to get another fill. I have posted about this before, but I think that my brain may be attempting to sabotage my efforts by trying to convince me that I don't need one. I know that addicts often put themselves in situations where they use and I think it is the same for me. So I have scheduled my fills as directed. I do need a fill. I don't have much restriction. Plus that 2-day liquid diet should jump-start my weight-loss.