WLS in 10 Days

I will be having the lap band weight loss surgery in 10 days. I am not sure how much I weigh right now, but I am guessing it is right around 280. I am planning to weigh myself before I check into the hospital.

I've got several reasons for having the WLS. I've tried to lose weight many times through various diet and exercise programs. Before I turned 30, it was pretty easy for me to lose weight. I was never more than 40 lbs. or so overweight and I could lose that in two or three months by following a diet plan. Since turning 30 and having my second daughter, my metabolism has changed, I guess.

I haven't told very many people about the surgery. My mom and sister know, my boyfriend knows, my kids know a simplified version of what is happening, my best friend knows and my pastor knows. I don't plan to tell anyone else. I'm not sure why it is a secret, but it is.

Maybe I'm ashamed. Maybe I think that I should be able to lose weight without WLS. Maybe I think that if I just tried harder, I could finally lose the weight. Maybe I'm afraid it won't work for me. Maybe I'm afraid other people will think these things.