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Monday, December 12, 2011


I love Christmas.  I really do.  This is my favorite time of the year.  I love the music.  I love the decorations.  I love buying gifts.  I love getting together with my family.  I love that people make an attempt to ebrace the spirit of the season. 

There's 13 days until Christmas and I just want to throw on the brakes!  I have worked so much in the last few weeks.  I am afraid Christmas will be here and gone before I get a chance to actually enjoy myself. 

And truth be told I am taking today to feel a little sorry for myself.  Tomorrow I will tell myself to knock it off and quit bellyacheing.  Tomorrow I will be grateful for all that I have - healthy kids, a good job, presents under the tree, but today I'm peeling some sour grapes. 

I'm not getting a Christmas bonus even though our company is making plenty of money.  It is all being funneled to an expensive construction project.  I know many people don't even have jobs, let alone Christmas bonuses.  Tomorrow I'll go back to feeling grateful, but today I am pissed off that I am working my ass off and not getting a Christmas bonus. 

I've already bitched about my former tenant.  I decided to send her a portion of her deposit.  I charged for the cleaning and lawn care she should have done, but I didn't charge for her breaking the lease.  I just wasn't up to the fight.  I'll still probably get hauled into court over it so I'm listing it in my litany of complaints.  Tomorrow I'll be grateful that the crazy bitch is gone.  Today I am sulky and resentful.

My car's brakes are making a God-awful noise.  I was actually planning on doing some car maintenance this month since we'll be taking two driving trips after Christmas, but I wasn't really planning on a brake job.  Tomorrow I'll be grateful to have a reliable car, but today I am pissed about the crappy timing.

I have spent too much money on Christmas and I'm not done shopping yet.  I set a budget every year and I save all year to have enough money for gifts.  I should have stuck within the budget.  Tomorrow I will be grateful that I had money for gifts, but today I'm feling broke.

I think that's it for now.  I'm sure tomorrow I'll think of something else, but of course I'll be feeling so grateful then that I won't want to go there. 


Anonymous said...

Ahhh, one of those days. Tomorrow will be a better day.

Sam said...

At least it is only one day and tomorrow you will be over it :o) I hope the day is over quickly for you!

Cat said...

I truly adore you Amanda. Also - thanks for the comment on my blog about struggling. I have worked very hard to follow your lead of there are no "bad" foods, just less healthful choices. I was just saying I was struggling with the more healthful choices. I think owning up to it to my dear blog friends has been helpful.

As for your attitude, I completely get that. G and I save all year as well for Christmas and it seems like it's never enough. Oh...we have 1000 this year to spend on Christmas? Why did we spend 1200?? Ugh. It's never enough. So sorry about your brakes. Car maintenance is never fun. Hope today is a better one for you my friend!

Amanda said...

I'm with's one of those days! I am having one too. And everything is pissing me off!

Ronnie said...

I'm in the same boat... with the lack of Christmas spirit... or time for spirit or whatever it is. Sigh.

Mary said...

I'm sorry you're having such a rough day. I think we've all had those kinds of days and they suck! But I think everyone deserves to have a crappy/cranky day every once in a while. Hope you get feeling better tomorrow!

MandaPanda said...

Here here! I've been feeling the same way with many of the same least the car, the bonus and the budget stretched gift buying. Everyone has those days where they just need to *itch and things usually look brighter in the morning. Hang in there!