I love Christmas. I really do. This is my favorite time of the year. I love the music. I love the decorations. I love buying gifts. I love getting together with my family. I love that people make an attempt to ebrace the spirit of the season.
There's 13 days until Christmas and I just want to throw on the brakes! I have worked so much in the last few weeks. I am afraid Christmas will be here and gone before I get a chance to actually enjoy myself.
And truth be told I am taking today to feel a little sorry for myself. Tomorrow I will tell myself to knock it off and quit bellyacheing. Tomorrow I will be grateful for all that I have - healthy kids, a good job, presents under the tree, but today I'm peeling some sour grapes.
I'm not getting a Christmas bonus even though our company is making plenty of money. It is all being funneled to an expensive construction project. I know many people don't even have jobs, let alone Christmas bonuses. Tomorrow I'll go back to feeling grateful, but today I am pissed off that I am working my ass off and not getting a Christmas bonus.
I've already bitched about my former tenant. I decided to send her a portion of her deposit. I charged for the cleaning and lawn care she should have done, but I didn't charge for her breaking the lease. I just wasn't up to the fight. I'll still probably get hauled into court over it so I'm listing it in my litany of complaints. Tomorrow I'll be grateful that the crazy bitch is gone. Today I am sulky and resentful.
My car's brakes are making a God-awful noise. I was actually planning on doing some car maintenance this month since we'll be taking two driving trips after Christmas, but I wasn't really planning on a brake job. Tomorrow I'll be grateful to have a reliable car, but today I am pissed about the crappy timing.
I have spent too much money on Christmas and I'm not done shopping yet. I set a budget every year and I save all year to have enough money for gifts. I should have stuck within the budget. Tomorrow I will be grateful that I had money for gifts, but today I'm feling broke.
I think that's it for now. I'm sure tomorrow I'll think of something else, but of course I'll be feeling so grateful then that I won't want to go there.