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Friday, March 11, 2011

Hello, hunger. It's been a while.

I wrote yesterday morning about how things hadn't changed too much since Saturday's un-fill, restriction wise.  As if on cue, hunger made a reappearance yesterday afternoon with a vengeance. 

Hunger. 

It scares me.  I'm surprised how much it scares me.  I knew I hadn't really been hungry for a good long time, but I've never really thought too much about how that factors into restriction and feeling in control with food.  Plus it is pretty easy to keep the calories down when I don't need afternoon snacks.

Did I mention I promised to take my kids to Izzy's tonight for dinner?  You know Izzy's?  Binge-central.  All-you-can-eat pizza and carbs and soda and dessert?  I've only eaten there once since being banded and I couldn't eat much.  It wasn't a big deal.  It was interesting to watch the morbidly obese people eat and eat and eat.  And now I'm hungry and I probably don't have much restriction and I'm going to Izzy's.  Yep, I'm afraid all right.

I went grocery shopping last night and bought snacks for myself.  I stocked my desk drawer and office refrigerator with Fiber One bars and string cheese and nuts.  I packed a light lunch so I could factor both a snack and a trip to Izzy's into a moderate calorie day.

Realistically I'm probably not going to lose any weight until I get another fill.  I know I'm going to need snacks and that will add an extra 100 - 250 calories per day to my food plan.  I probably won't see the 160's for another two to four weeks. 

So close yet so far. 

16 comments:

Island Bandit said...

you'll make it through tonight.... just go in with a plan and pack some determination in your purse!!!! Go back to basics... you'll do fine

Ronnie said...

Binge central sounds like a scary place to be, and as for getting to the 160's... give yourself a little credit! You've been living the band lifestyle for a year now. You might surprise yourself, you never know. :)

Stephanie said...

Don't feel too bad, because I am right there with you. My unfill due to illness has turned into ZERO restriction and I am mega hungry. Like crazy bad. This sucks big ones.

MandaPanda said...

I agree with Ronnie...you've learned over the last year. Just watch those portions and try to fill up on the healthy stuff. Good luck in Bingetown!

Amanda said...

Good luck and Izzy's and thanks for the info you posted on my blog - it was helpful!

Nella said...

Thanks for the advice! Hoping my doc can prescribe something to reduce the swelling!

So hard to wear a bra or tight clothes...the pressure sucks!

You will be fine...just relax and enjoy yourself!

Shannon said...

I think you just need to pace yourself and feel things out again. This is all new now that you are at this end of the spectrum. Just eat to your satisfied and not rolling out the door. :)

Have faith in yourself. This isn't your fist day at the rodeo. :)

Jen from Oregon said...

I bet you'll do just fine. You may actually need some fuel after all the bad/sick/reflux days.
I know what your saying about being afraid. I've got a full band but am trying to lose this last bit and am counting calories. I find I am saying "Can't have that" a lot but I feel a binge is not far off. YIKES!

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Kenda said...

Amanda, I have faith in you, my friend. You've come a tremendously long way in just over a year. You still have determination to reach your goals. I know that you will not allow Izzy's to control you. I KNOW you walked in that door and controlled every bite that went through your lips. As someone stated above, I am sure your body is in need of fuel replenishing with having been so sick the past bit. Take a breath, and know that no matter what you are loved and encouraged by everyone who knows you!!! Amagna, I knew you when you were in school.. so I KNOW you have this under control!!! <3

Sistergirl said...

Enjoy the journey, don't defeat yourself with negative thinking.

Most people now a days don't wait until their body have that hungry feeling because we are so use to just eating because we feel we should.

GOd doesn't give you more than you can bear, You can do it.

Joia said...

You WILL get there. I can't remember what hunger feels like right now either, but I know I'm going to have to get another unfill when I see my doctor again...I've been ridiculously too tight and unable to eat solid foods, for the most part. I keep debating - is the weight loss that comes with "too tight" really worth the pain and suffering? I dunno. I *really* like seeing the scale move, but being miserable kinda sucks in it's own right.

trisha said...

I hope you had a nice time last night amanda! let us know how it went! I am sure you did great!

Read said...

I hope it went okay - I think as others have said - just go back to basics - You've had a tremendous amount of success and you know what to do to keep it up!!

Pretty Pauline said...

I have never heard of Izzy's, and I thankful for that right now! LOL! You can do it though, especially knowing that ALL OF US are thinking about you as you sit down to eat... :)

tagyourit said...

I hope it went well at dinner. Hunger really is crappy and can hurt us. I hope it all works out.