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Friday, December 17, 2010

I need a new ticker!

I weighed again today and all is well.  I am down a pound (.45 kg.) since last week.  I can stop freaking out now.  Thank you all for talking me off the ledge.  I knew you were right, but I was surprised by how quickly all those old fears and doubts came rushing back.

So I need to create a new ticker.  I have set a new goal to lose 16.6 (7.5 kg.) more pounds, which will bring me to a normal BMI.  But I'm not quite ready to part with being at goal.  Also I suspect it is going to take a while to get there.  I've only lost 2 lbs. (.9 kg.) so far this month.  I lost 6.4 lbs. (2.9 kg.) in November.  Nothing has changed in my routine so I believe it is just a natural slowing down.  Eventually the weight loss will stop at whatever weight my body feels is a good spot for me, I guess.  I can only hypothesise about that part of this process.  I've certainly never eaten so "normally" in my life.  I'm not dieting so when I reach goal I won't change anything.  In theory I'll maintain whatever weight I end up at. 

To completely change the subject, I can't believe Christmas is a week away.  I am sad to see that it is so soon.  What I really love is Christmastime.  I adore the music, the lights, the general festive atmosphere and spirit.  The actual day is nice, but I'm always sad because it means it is almost over.  This is one of the reasons that I always take a week off after Christmas.  It gives me something to look forward to.

I've also been thinking about the new year.  I'm not one to set resolutions or anything, but I do hope that 2011 is a better year than 2010 has been.  There have been several instances in this past year where things could have gone the good way or the bad way and they always went the bad way.  Most of them have to do with finances.  This year has been filled with disappointments, more than any other year of my life.  It has really taken its toll on my spirit, I'm afraid.

Of course the WLS and weight loss is the one shiny beacon of positivity that shines through 2010 and I am so happy about that.  I feel like my issue with weight and food has been a major struggle for practically my entire life and now I've finally found a solution.  It gives me hope to know that if this formerly major problem can be resolved, the others ones can someday as well.   

11 comments:

MandaPanda said...

Seems like this year was especially rought for a lot more people than normal. The economy being the way it is and all. Like you, the lapband was truly the one positive thing and it didn't happen until the second half hte year for me. I'm holding out hope that 2011 is a better year. Here's to us and a new year with a new hope!

Jaime said...

Cheers to a better year next year! So awesome that you are at your first goal, enjoy it! It will take some time to get lower. Bust out some serious workouts and that will help. Way to go!

blondee said...

I hope you have a wonderful Christmas and that 2011 brings a lot of positivity to your life in many ways!! I am kind of glad to see 2010 leave as well!

Ronnie said...

I hate when the holidays are over, too. I sometimes get sad on Christmas morning, after all the presents are opened - but more often than not by that evening I'm glad the rat race is over. :)

Rachel said...

I hope 2011 brings you many blessings. A testament to you is that you project a lot of positive energy amid whatever has been happening in your life. That is a gift...Look forward to encouraging and learning with/from you in 2011.

Jacquie said...

Cant you just keep using the same ticker? I think I've seen tickers where it goes into the negative when you hit goal and than keep going down. I may be dreaming though so don't hold me to it!

I too am hoping for a much better 2011...I pray that what my family went through in 2010 was the worst we will have to ever get through. I am praying real hard that prayers work!

Sarah said...

Thanks for the comment! I agree about 2010...I had a very rough & stressful year, but I too am so thankful for my weight loss/surgery. I pray we both have a less stressful new year!

Kristin said...

I really hope 2011 is everything you're hoping for and more. You deserve it, Amanda.

Dizzy Girl said...

2011 will be a great year! I hope it's as good for you/to you as it will be for/to me. ;)

xo-

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~Lisa~ (Mrs C) said...

Add my glass to the "cheers-ing"! I pray your 2011 is all that you hope it will be!

And, we take the week after Christmas as well - just "us" time to really enjoy the holidays together - I can't WAIT!!

Janelle said...

It's been rough over here finance-wise as well.. I wish my husband could get a decent job where he isn't laid off every winter.. sigh. The weight loss is awesome but I wish I wasn't always worrying about money, especially when I am planning on starting a family this coming year...hope everything goes as planned.