It's Wednesday Weigh Day! I weighed in this morning at 217.6 lbs. (98.7 Kg.) for a loss of 1.4 lbs. (.64 kg.) for the week. Not as dramatic as my other weigh ins this month, but I'll take it! I am down 62.4 lbs. (28.3 kg.) total since February.
My goal is 37.6 lbs. (17.05 kg.) away. Let me say that again. My goal is 37.6 lbs. (17.05) away. I can't believe it. I know I still have a ways to go and ideally I'd like to lose more than 100 lbs. (45.35 kg.), but if I never lost any more than that, I'd be okay with it. Just thinking about it is completely overwelming - and I don't mean that I'm overwelmed by still having 37.6 lbs. to lose. I mean I'm overwelmed to be so close. I'm overwelmed that I've been able to do it thus far.
I see myself now and I think I look pretty good. Not thin, of course, but not bad. When I started, I felt like anyone looking at me would see mainly fat. Now I'm sort of "normal-fat" if there is such a thing.
I'm also not really doing anything special. I'm definately not dieting. I am eating whatever foods I want. My lap-band keeps my quantities under control. I try to eat enough protein, drink lots of water, and get daily exercise. I'm not going crazy with sweets, but have something sweet once or twice a week. There isn't anything I am doing that I could see stopping once I get to goal. Maybe I should say that again! This is my life now and I can't believe it! I've always wanted to be able to live like this. I eat when I'm hungry, stop when I'm full. I enjoy eating and I don't feel ashamed of my food choices. I love my lap-band!
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Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Here's one for the LADIES!
I was looking back at some old posts and I noticed that every month about this time, I go into a bit of a funk. Yep. You guessed it! It's TOM that sends me off the deep end into a depression spiral of never-ending fear and dismay.
Isn't it fun to be a girl?
Isn't it fun to be a girl?
Monday, June 28, 2010
Kicking head hunger in the A$$~!
So far in my WLS journey, I've had a pretty easy time of it. I'm almost afraid to type that in case I curse myself, but it's true. I've lost weight really consistently in the four months since surgery and have been really motivated. I never imagined I'd be down more than 60 lbs. by this stage in the game.
I haven't even really had any major cravings. At least not until this weekend. All of the sudden, I wanted to eat! This coincided with my lap-band being somewhat looser than it has been. Which I actually consider a good thing. I've discovered I don't like being super tight. I like being able to eat without getting stuck. But I digress. I had to struggle not to overeat this weekend and I'm happy to say I made it through without any major issues.
I am doing my first 5K on Sunday, July 4th. Hope I'm ready!
I haven't even really had any major cravings. At least not until this weekend. All of the sudden, I wanted to eat! This coincided with my lap-band being somewhat looser than it has been. Which I actually consider a good thing. I've discovered I don't like being super tight. I like being able to eat without getting stuck. But I digress. I had to struggle not to overeat this weekend and I'm happy to say I made it through without any major issues.
I am doing my first 5K on Sunday, July 4th. Hope I'm ready!
Friday, June 25, 2010
Pix of my yard
I took these a couple of weeks ago. We had weeks and weeks of rain and grey days. It is beautiful now - sunny and 80 (26 C). We live in the city, but this is our little slice of the country:
Blueberries - These will be ripe in August.
These hens provide my family with eggs, but they don't like having their photo taken.
We have lots of extra space in the garden this year. I don't know if we'll get around to planting anything else.
My raspberries are ripe now and they are so yummy. I also have strawberries and cherries.
Blueberries - These will be ripe in August. 
These hens provide my family with eggs, but they don't like having their photo taken.
We have lots of extra space in the garden this year. I don't know if we'll get around to planting anything else.
My raspberries are ripe now and they are so yummy. I also have strawberries and cherries.
Wish List
I have a wish list. Actually I have two lists; a "needs" list and a "wants" list. Once a year or so I look over the list and notice which items have been achieved and which items are still open. The items on the list are things that I pray about. It helps me to see that even when I don't notice that my needs, and even some of my wants, are being met, they actually are.
My list is about seven years old. Many of the things on the list were very relevant in 2003, but not anymore. For example, one of the items on the list is my grandmother getting better, but she died in October 2005. Another item is doing well in college. I graduated in 2006. Some of the things on the list haven't really changed like my wish for financial security. But even though this has been a struggle for at least the last seven years, we still have a roof over our head, clothes to waer and enough food to eat.
My weight issue has been featured prominently in this list. In February 2008 I made a note that I had lost 21 lbs. (9.53 kg.). I followed the entry with a big dark exclamation point like I was so excited about it. I remember that weight loss attempt really clearly. My friend has had gastric bypass in August 2007 and we went to the beach a month or so later. She was eating mushies (baby food, applesause, cottage cheese) and I wondered why she couldn't just follow the diet and lose weight without the surgery. I started my diet in October as my last-ditch effort to lose weight. I was afraid that surgery might be my only option too, but when I was able to lose weight, I was really encouraged that I could do it this time. I lost weight really slowly. All together I lost 24 lbs. (10.89 kg.) in about four months and then nothing for two more months when I finally quit.
I was losing weight really slowly, but what got me off track was that I gave up sweets for Lent that year. When Easter came, I had a deprevation induced binge. As I recall I had difficulty all through Lent following my food plan. It was as if the idea that certain foods were off limits made me rebel against the diet. I've since come to realize that I cannot make any foods off limits. If I want something, I need to be able to work it into my food plan or I will rebel and binge.
So I updated the weight issue on my list. I noted WLS on 2/12/10. I believe this is the answer for me. But even though I consider my weight issue in the process of being resolved, I know that I will always have to work on it. Last night, for example, I ate when I wasn't hungry. I was irritated and hot and tired and food sounded good. I didn't go overboard with calories or anything. It wasn't a binge, but it wasn't the way I want to eat anymore. Today I'm going to log my food so hopefully I won't continue to be off track.
I encourage you to make your own "Need/Want" list. Once a year or so, go over the list and write the date the item was resolved. You may be surprised by how many of your needs are met.
My list is about seven years old. Many of the things on the list were very relevant in 2003, but not anymore. For example, one of the items on the list is my grandmother getting better, but she died in October 2005. Another item is doing well in college. I graduated in 2006. Some of the things on the list haven't really changed like my wish for financial security. But even though this has been a struggle for at least the last seven years, we still have a roof over our head, clothes to waer and enough food to eat.
My weight issue has been featured prominently in this list. In February 2008 I made a note that I had lost 21 lbs. (9.53 kg.). I followed the entry with a big dark exclamation point like I was so excited about it. I remember that weight loss attempt really clearly. My friend has had gastric bypass in August 2007 and we went to the beach a month or so later. She was eating mushies (baby food, applesause, cottage cheese) and I wondered why she couldn't just follow the diet and lose weight without the surgery. I started my diet in October as my last-ditch effort to lose weight. I was afraid that surgery might be my only option too, but when I was able to lose weight, I was really encouraged that I could do it this time. I lost weight really slowly. All together I lost 24 lbs. (10.89 kg.) in about four months and then nothing for two more months when I finally quit.
I was losing weight really slowly, but what got me off track was that I gave up sweets for Lent that year. When Easter came, I had a deprevation induced binge. As I recall I had difficulty all through Lent following my food plan. It was as if the idea that certain foods were off limits made me rebel against the diet. I've since come to realize that I cannot make any foods off limits. If I want something, I need to be able to work it into my food plan or I will rebel and binge.
So I updated the weight issue on my list. I noted WLS on 2/12/10. I believe this is the answer for me. But even though I consider my weight issue in the process of being resolved, I know that I will always have to work on it. Last night, for example, I ate when I wasn't hungry. I was irritated and hot and tired and food sounded good. I didn't go overboard with calories or anything. It wasn't a binge, but it wasn't the way I want to eat anymore. Today I'm going to log my food so hopefully I won't continue to be off track.
I encourage you to make your own "Need/Want" list. Once a year or so, go over the list and write the date the item was resolved. You may be surprised by how many of your needs are met.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Everything is better with the metric system
This is my weigh-day and I am 219 lbs. which is 99.3 kg.! As someone who grew up in the States, 99.3 kg. sounds so much better than 219 lbs. I'm sure that isn't the case for people who grew up using kilos routinely. Still I think there should be a special name for hitting double digits in kilos, ala Onederland. What do you guys think? Double-D? Any other ideas?
I also wanted to report that I rode my bike 28 miles last week. That is 45.06 km.! See what I mean about everything being better?
I've hit the 60 lb. down mark. As a matter of fact, I am 61 lbs. down since my highest pre-op weight. Here is a photo of me taken last summer at the Oregon Shakespearean Festival in Ashland. We saw Don Quixote, btw. Not Shakespeare, I know, but Cervantes was a contemporary of Shakespeare and he is the father of the modern novel:
Now here's a photo of me this week, in double digits:
I also wanted to report that I rode my bike 28 miles last week. That is 45.06 km.! See what I mean about everything being better?
I've hit the 60 lb. down mark. As a matter of fact, I am 61 lbs. down since my highest pre-op weight. Here is a photo of me taken last summer at the Oregon Shakespearean Festival in Ashland. We saw Don Quixote, btw. Not Shakespeare, I know, but Cervantes was a contemporary of Shakespeare and he is the father of the modern novel:
Now here's a photo of me this week, in double digits:
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Beautiful Blogger Award
I am truly honored to have been given this award by two of my favorite bloggers, Pamela and Kagead. Thank you both so much and thank you to all of my followers who faithfully read this drivel and make insightful comments, even when I don't have anything to offer.
I am supposed to tell you seven things that you may not know about me and then nominate seven others for the award. So without further ado, here goes!
1) Whenever I wear a v-neck or low cut shirt, I check out my boobs...constantly. There is just something about the perspective of looking at them from above. The only good thing about getting fat was having big boobs. I've already lost a cup size. I'll probably end up a B cup when I'm done. But I'll still check them out.
2) Like Beth, I speak fluent Spanish. In fact I have a Bachelor's degree in Spanish from the University of Oregon.
3) On a related note, I graduated Magna Cum Laude. I put myself through University while working full time and raising my two daughters. While in college, I was bitterly unhappy due to all the stress and pressure.
4) I have been a vegetarian since I was 19 years old. I do not eat meat, fish or poultry. I do eat eggs and dairy products.
5) I only eat full-fat foods and I don't eat sugar free products (except occassionaly Splenda). I have heavy cream in my coffee in the morning. I eat real butter.
6) I have a sister who is three years older than me and a sister who is 21 years younger than me. My mom's crazy!
7) My date of my birthday this year will be 8-9-10.
8) I know I said seven things, but I also wanted to mention that I have lived in Mexico twice. I love to travel and I also love living in another country. I hope someday to retire there or perhaps somewhere else with nice weather and where they are Spanish-speaking.
I follow many wonderful blogs and it is impossible to narrow it down to just seven people to honor. This is a random list in no particular order:
1) Grace Grace is such a sweetie. I kind of feel like her big sister or something although she is much smarter than me. I wish I'd had the courage to address my eating issues at her age rather then wait until I was 36.
2) Stephanie I love Stephanie for so many reasons. She is kind and generous and beautiful. I wish we lived closer because I'm sure we'd be friends!
3) Sarah One of the first blogs I started following, Sarah is another veteran lap-bander. I so appreicate the wisdom and experience of those who've been at this for awhile!
4) Bonnie I think Bonnie has been waiting for a band longer than any other blogger I follow. I am so frustrated for her and so impressed by her patience!
5) Shrinking Mommy Shrinking Mommy is awesome. She has such a fun-sounding life.
6) Carmen Carmen is my sister from another mister (so corny, sorry!). I swear we were seperated at birth. Our pre-op weight was the same, we were banded on almost the same day, we even have the same favorite song. Every time she posts, I see a bit of me in what she has to say.
7) Tina Another Oregonian, Tina is at goal and has been such an inspiration to me.
8) Pamela A breast cancer survivor and still in the pre-band phase, Pamela is awesome! I just started following her blog and I love it and her!
I am supposed to tell you seven things that you may not know about me and then nominate seven others for the award. So without further ado, here goes!
1) Whenever I wear a v-neck or low cut shirt, I check out my boobs...constantly. There is just something about the perspective of looking at them from above. The only good thing about getting fat was having big boobs. I've already lost a cup size. I'll probably end up a B cup when I'm done. But I'll still check them out.
2) Like Beth, I speak fluent Spanish. In fact I have a Bachelor's degree in Spanish from the University of Oregon.
3) On a related note, I graduated Magna Cum Laude. I put myself through University while working full time and raising my two daughters. While in college, I was bitterly unhappy due to all the stress and pressure.
4) I have been a vegetarian since I was 19 years old. I do not eat meat, fish or poultry. I do eat eggs and dairy products.
5) I only eat full-fat foods and I don't eat sugar free products (except occassionaly Splenda). I have heavy cream in my coffee in the morning. I eat real butter.
6) I have a sister who is three years older than me and a sister who is 21 years younger than me. My mom's crazy!
7) My date of my birthday this year will be 8-9-10.
8) I know I said seven things, but I also wanted to mention that I have lived in Mexico twice. I love to travel and I also love living in another country. I hope someday to retire there or perhaps somewhere else with nice weather and where they are Spanish-speaking.
I follow many wonderful blogs and it is impossible to narrow it down to just seven people to honor. This is a random list in no particular order:
1) Grace Grace is such a sweetie. I kind of feel like her big sister or something although she is much smarter than me. I wish I'd had the courage to address my eating issues at her age rather then wait until I was 36.
2) Stephanie I love Stephanie for so many reasons. She is kind and generous and beautiful. I wish we lived closer because I'm sure we'd be friends!
3) Sarah One of the first blogs I started following, Sarah is another veteran lap-bander. I so appreicate the wisdom and experience of those who've been at this for awhile!
4) Bonnie I think Bonnie has been waiting for a band longer than any other blogger I follow. I am so frustrated for her and so impressed by her patience!
5) Shrinking Mommy Shrinking Mommy is awesome. She has such a fun-sounding life.
6) Carmen Carmen is my sister from another mister (so corny, sorry!). I swear we were seperated at birth. Our pre-op weight was the same, we were banded on almost the same day, we even have the same favorite song. Every time she posts, I see a bit of me in what she has to say.
7) Tina Another Oregonian, Tina is at goal and has been such an inspiration to me.
8) Pamela A breast cancer survivor and still in the pre-band phase, Pamela is awesome! I just started following her blog and I love it and her!
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