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Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Not where I want to be

I haven't had to work so hard to lose weight since being banded and so far, no progress whatsoever.  WTF?!?!

I thought I was out of the 170's forever, but I am stuck at 174 after gaining about 7 pounds over the holidays.  I reined in my holiday eating right after the first of the year and started logging my food, with no loss.  Since I was logging, I could see that I was eating about 1,800 calories a day which is too much for weight loss so I dropped my calories down to about 1,500.  No loss.  At the same time I was dropping my food down, I increased my protein AND increased my exercise, but I still haven't lost anything. 

So now what?  Jeez!  I swear I didn't work this hard to lose 115 lbs.  During that time I could have done any ONE of the things I've done and seen results.  Just logging my food would have allowed me to make progress.

This SUCKS!!!

I was chatting about it to a friend who had surgery pretty recently and she said, "Well, you know what you need to do.", but the thing is I really don't know what to do.  I am NOT overeating.  I am being honest and putting in the work.  Where the hell are my results?

The ONLY thing that makes sense at this point is to keep plugging away.  I'm not gaining.  Perhaps when the weather gets better and I am more active, things will start moving again on their own (providing, of course, that I keep eating well and logging my food and exercising).  I'm not going to let it fuck with my brain (much) because that is where I really can get into trouble (in my own mind).  When I throw up my hands and say, "Fuck it!  It doesn't matter what I do, so why do anything?" I will start gaining and I do not want to be there again. 

I also will start saving money for a fill.  My restriction is weird.  I know I can eat more than I could previously.  I also am eating more frequently than I probably should.  I am worried about acid reflux, but a very small tweak should be okay (I hope).

8 comments:

Cat said...

Interesting topic. I have been feeling the same way. I have lost about 2.5 lbs in the past 7 weeks. My average since being banded is around nearly 2 per week. I know unfortunately that mine is related to poor food choices and serious slow down of exercise. Can you fit a bit more activity in your day? I know you ride to work two days a week and walk the dog every day, but can you make time to do a family walk with the girls or play outside with them for a bit? Something that isn't structured exercise but just get your heart rate up again doing something different a few times a week. Just think about it!

MandaPanda said...

I KNOW why I'm not losing weight and it really sucks that you're not seeing results when you're actually putting the effort into it. Maybe even 1500 is too many calories? I know they say it's math but I'm calling phooey on that. I cut mine to 1200 for 2 weeks and lost nothing so I'm afraid I have no good advice. Hang in there!

A.J. said...

Oh-em-gee!! I swear you took this right out of my brain. I just posted something very similar to this. I feel ya'!

~Sandi @ This one time at 'band' camp... said...

This was going to be my post today as well so I see a lot of us feel the same...not sure what to do anymore...maybe 1500 cals is to much for your body.

Lap Band Gal said...

Calorie counts are interesting. For me, if I want to lose then I have to eat about 1100-1200 per day. If I go over that then I maintain or gain. So crazy how those calorie counts can affect things.

Dinnerland said...

It definitely does get harder as time goes on-- but don't give up.
You can do it!! Just keep working at it and things will come along...

Stephanie said...

I think our bodies just like to mess with us sometimes. over the holidays and when i tried quitting smoking I got up to 167 and it has been a BEAR trying to get back to the 150's. It's like no matter what I do, can't quite get there and it's pssing me off. You're not alone in this fight, but you are an inspiration.

greenie said...

Hi Amanda, I wish I could reply to your comments on email.
Thanks for the tip on the Premier protein shakes. I found them.at Sam's and am sipping one now. Sooo much better than that Crap I got at GNC. THANKS!