Tuesday, August 2, 2011
No biggie. But it was very good. So I had two more. And then I was fixing a snack for the pet rats and decided to make two more saltines with peanut butter for myself.
Why do I do this? It wasn't planned. I wasn't hungry. I was literally shoving food in my mouth for no reason. And the worst thing? I didn't even enjoy it. I have some rules when it comes to eating. I must eat sitting down. I cannot eat while driving. I can't eat when I have to pee or am otherwise distracted. Standing in the kitchen, eating quickly definitely violates the rules!
Mindless eating does not lead to satisfaction and when I am not satisfied by my food, chances are I'm going to keep eating. Shoving food in my mouth is like trying to eat as much as I can before I notice that I'm eating, before I put the breaks on, and before I make myself stop. I used to eat like this a lot.
Thankfully, I no longer do. Thankfully, I know that even though I made a poor choice yesterday, I don't have to continue making poor choices. I know I deserve to eat food and I deserve to feel satisfied by it. I don't have to gobble something up while silently screaming at myself that I'm fat and stupid. And THAT feels pretty good!