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Thursday, May 19, 2011

Random Thursday

The weather is beautiful today.  I wish I wasn't stuck in my office.  My co-worker is taking a half-day so she just left.  I'm watching her leave and feeling jealous!  I feel like whimpering like a puppy.  I.DON'T.WANT.TO.BE.HERE.

I signed up for My Fitness Pal and I am liking it so far.  I used to use My-Calorie-Counter and it is pretty similar.  It gives me so many extra calories when I enter my exercise.  I don't plan on using them.  Today it says I should be eating over 2,000 calories.  Holy CRAP!!!  I never eat that much.  Just the thought scares me!

The scale hates me.  I got on today just to torture myself and I was up even more than yesterday which is complete BOLLOCKS!  There must be some water weight BS going on or something.  I'm going to ignore it.  I am eating just fine, thank you very much.

Thank you all for you support about my thieving daughter.  I appreciate your ideas and suggestions and confirmation that we're doing the right thing.  I know she's a good kid and I know she'll get over it.  Honestly I never imagined how difficult parenting would be before I had kids.  And it never occurred to me that I wouldn't know what to do so often.  I do what I think is best, but I still see my kids making mistakes and suffering at times.  I guess every parent comes to that realization.

Did I ever tell you about my friend and her two SUPER-KIDS?  She has one daughter who is a soccer and basketball star.  She plays both sports year-round and practices or has games (often multiple games) nearly every day.  Their teams always win and they play up - compete against older children.  The child is 9 and she is very smart and sweet, but I just can't help feeling sorry for how much pressure she's under.  Their other child, an 11-year-old boy, isn't much of an athlete so they have steered him toward his interests which are drama and music.  He plays piano and sings and just starred in a children's production of the Wizard of Oz.  I love my friend very much.  She and her husband are great people.  I think I am jealous of how talented their kids are.  My kids are just ordinary.  My daughter also plays soccer, but her team loses sometimes.  They've never been profiled on the local news.  My friend also just got a new job working 1/2 time and she is earning almost as much as she was at her full-time job that she just quit.  Working 1/2 time is my DREAM!  I am happy for her, but I can't help wish that my own situation was different.  And a tiny little bit of me wishes the daughter's soccer team would lose a game.  Is that wrong? Is it less-wrong if I tell you that they have two kids that used to be on my daughter's team?   

I think I need a fill, but I probably won't get one any time soon.  I don't have the money for one thing.  For another I have decent restriction, but I am preoccupied with food.  Is getting a fill a valid treatment for food preoccupation?  I seldom thought about food before my un-fill a few months back.  I'm also worried about the acid reflux coming back.  

So I guess that's about it.  I hope it is sunny where you're at.  And I hope you can get out to enjoy it!

9 comments:

Theresa said...

I have a very close friend who's daughter was a super star athletically and intelectually, she never experienced a losing team or a bad grade. When she got out of high school and experienced a little bit of real life, she couldn't handle it. Two stints in rehab later, she's doing much better, but I just think that when children know early on what life is really like, the do better in the long run. I'm obsessed with food too right now, maybe it's in the air!

Cat said...

Yay you with your sunny weather!! Ours has been rainy in Central PA for what feels like weeks. (that's a bit of a stretch, it was beautiful all week two weeks ago! :)

I don't have kids, so I don't think it's bad of you at all to acknowledge the feelings that these kids should experience losing occasionally. As Tessie said above, losing teaches important life lessons. While winning is great and fun and definately feels better than losing...losing is an important step in learning and growing and being a successful human being when they are adults. Your kids are going to be great adults. : )

MB said...

I agree about the lessons that come with losing.

And otherwise, I think it's sometimes hard to remember our blessings when we are around people who have what seems like more to us....more money, skinnier, smarter, etc., etc. They are always out there. The best thing to do is to not compare ourselves with others at all...because there is always someone who has more, is thinner, does _________ better. I know that's hard to keep in mind. I definitely struggle. But if we could master it, that would be our ticket to more happiness and contentment with what we have. I hope I'm not preaching there. Like I said, I'm part of the group that needs to follow that advice!

Dawnya said...

You are raising your children well. Don't ever doubt that. They will be better people for the way you are teaching them.

I feel sorry the the children of your friends.

Linda said...

Well appreciate the sun even if you're at work. It's been raining here forever - I'm building an ark.
Sometimes we know people who seems to get all the breaks, but I try to keep in mind that they have things going on in my life I don't know about. Your girls may seem ordinary, but they are loved and well taken care of and that's what counts.

Tina said...

howdy :) it seems like we are both have a bit of a pain in the arse time of it :)...Just to make you smile (cause this is totally sarcasm). My neighbor was having difficulty with her almost gone from home sons a while back and she said something totally jokingly but sometimes so spot on with the feelings of a parent who is in a rough spot with kids...her words.."if I had known raising kids was this tough and never seemed to end I would have had a dog instead" :)

it sounds bad a in know..but I often think about that quote when my daughters are being a pain in my backside :)

xxxooo

Leslie said...

I enter in my exercise to myfitnesspal but lately I have been deleting the calories burned because having those extra calories messes with my head! LOL.

MandaPanda said...

I'm probably repeating but here goes. I'd be jealous of that friend too. I have friends like that...where stuff just always seems to work out splendidly for them. *sigh* Definitely not the hand I've been dealt. I think the band is just what you need for food preoccuptation. My doc described the band as a food lobotomy. You just don't think about it when it's working. I found when I had good restriction, this was true for me. I need a fill also. Can you tell?

tagyourit said...

My husband and I always seem to get the short end of the stick while we watch others in the family get better situations. It can be hard to be happy for them and you should not feel bad about that.