I chose to spend the week from December 28th through January 2nd pigging out. I did it because I was making myself crazy (Don't believe me? Read my last posts before Christmas. Coo coo, I tell you) and I knew just giving myself permission to eat would quiet the craziness. And you know what? It did, at least for a while. I ate what I felt like eating. I didn't shame myself. I enjoyed my food. I stopped freaking out about every food choice.
But here's the deal, that sort of "relief" brings its own set of problems. I gained three more pounds in that week. Remember how freaked out I was about the original three pounds that I spent about four weeks gaining? Well now they have three more new friends! I am up six pounds over the holidays! FAN-FREAKIN'-TASTIC!
But I own my choices. I made them. No one forced me to make bad choices.
I don't need to go on a diet. I don't need to start a liquid fast. I don't need the latest miracle pill, cream, exercise craze, or diet book.
What I do need is to quit eating between meals. I need to log my food, at least for awhile. I need to avoid snacks after dinner (which is pretty much the same thing as not eating between meals, but I guess I need to say it both ways). I need to focus on getting in my protein first and making nutritional food choices most of the time. I need to limit sweets to a single serving on weekends. I need to continue exercising and drinking lots of water, two things that I have been doing well this whole time.
I may get a fill if things don't improve. I'm so glad I have this amazing tool that can be "recharged"! Although I have noticed that I have been PBing a lot lately, I think it has more to do with overeating and poor food choices than being too tight.
And someone commented that maybe I should see a therapist. I thought you guys were my therapists? No? Well, that probably isn't a bad idea, but I have done therapy many times and I don't really want to do that right now (Not to mention that I don't have health insurance or extra cash for that sort of thing). So we'll see! Really I feel like I'm back on track already so I'm not too worried. I just wanted to publicly own the gain and my choices. Thanks for listening!