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Thursday, January 5, 2012

I own my choices

I chose to spend the week from December 28th through January 2nd pigging out.  I did it because I was making myself crazy (Don't believe me?  Read my last posts before Christmas.  Coo coo, I tell you) and I knew just giving myself permission to eat would quiet the craziness.  And you know what?  It did, at least for a while.  I ate what I felt like eating.  I didn't shame myself.  I enjoyed my food.  I stopped freaking out about every food choice.

But here's the deal, that sort of "relief" brings its own set of problems.  I gained three more pounds in that week.  Remember how freaked out I was about the original three pounds that I spent about four weeks gaining?  Well now they have three more new friends!  I am up six pounds over the holidays!  FAN-FREAKIN'-TASTIC!

But I own my choices.  I made them.  No one forced me to make bad choices. 

I don't need to go on a diet.  I don't need to start a liquid fast.  I don't need the latest miracle pill, cream, exercise craze, or diet book. 

What I do need is to quit eating between meals.  I need to log my food, at least for awhile.  I need to avoid snacks after dinner (which is pretty much the same thing as not eating between meals, but I guess I need to say it both ways).  I need to focus on getting in my protein first and making nutritional food choices most of the time.  I need to limit sweets to a single serving on weekends.  I need to continue exercising and drinking lots of water, two things that I have been doing well this whole time.

I may get a fill if things don't improve.  I'm so glad I have this amazing tool that can be "recharged"!  Although I have noticed that I have been PBing a lot lately, I think it has more to do with overeating and poor food choices than being too tight.

And someone commented that maybe I should see a therapist.  I thought you guys were my therapists?  No?  Well, that probably isn't a bad idea, but I have done therapy many times and I don't really want to do that right now (Not to mention that I don't have health insurance or extra cash for that sort of thing).  So we'll see!  Really I feel like I'm back on track already so I'm not too worried.  I just wanted to publicly own the gain and my choices.  Thanks for listening!   

9 comments:

Darlin1 said...

Sounds like you have it under control to me!

Cat said...

I love that you aren't rushing out to do the pouch test or a liquid diet or some other fad. I believe we have all the tool we need, we just need to work it and it sounds like you got it under control. *hugs*

trisha said...

great plan girl, you got this

Rachel said...

You can do it!!! I have to keep reminding myself to step away from the Reese's... today I will NOT eat between meals... that is my mantra! xxx

MandaPanda said...

What I like about this post is that you aren't panicking. You're not rushing out to a fad diet or something like that to get back to where you were. You're going back to what you know has made you successful. It sounds so easy, doesn't it? As for therapy, I think ANYONE can probably benefit from it. I've personally never been but there have been times where I'm sure it would've helped. I think as long as you're not overly depressed with your situation (which you don't sound like you are) then you'll be just fine ;) BTW, I totally think blogging is therapeutic.

Ronnie said...

I second everything Manda said! I think just blogging more like you've been doing lately will help. :)

Ronnie said...

(Sorry for the lack of comments, I've been trying to play catch-up, but I'm reading everything!)

Jessica said...

Tag, you're it!!

The thin seeker said...

I went through the same stage. I had to have a few days of pigging out to get it out of my system. Result, 2 kg weight gain but luckily it's gone now.

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