Sometimes I write post titles that have very little to do with what I intend to say. This is one of those times. Sadly, I have done no ass kicking, nor name taking.
But I do feel like I have taken steps to get back to where I want to be. To re-cap, I had surgery last February and was very sick for several weeks. During that time, I lost 20 lbs. I didn't need to lose the weight, but I wasn't sad about it. I maintained the loss after I recovered for about six months, but in about August I started re-gaining.
I didn't really change anything that I was doing. Maybe it just took that long for my body to heal completely. Between August and a couple of weeks ago, I gained about 16 lbs.
More than five years ago, I lost 110 lbs. I have maintained that loss for that long, but my weight has fluctuated some in those years. Back when I was obese, I thought that once I got to my goal weight I wouldn't have to worry about my weight again. Since then I have learned that it is something I have to work on every day and I will have to continue to do so for the rest of life.
The thing that I find especially frustrating is that I have experienced weight gains even though I am doing all the right things. I make good food choices. I use MFP to track my food. I exercise like a mo fo. I drink water. I weigh myself regularly. Back in my obesity days, I would either be following some really rigid diet or I would be eating whatever I wanted without regard for calories, fat, protein, etc. When I went on a diet, it would be easy to make changes because there were lots of things I was doing wrong. But now the tweaks I make are much more subtle.
I have been eating dessert pretty much every night. I've also been drinking (relatively) high-calorie coffee drinks every work day. My meals have been very good and healthy, but those two areas were clearly becoming a problem. In the last two weeks I have been eating a lower calorie dessert most nights (a tablespoon of cookie butter on a rice cake). I've also been having a protein drink for lunch on the days I'm having coffee so I'm ending the day at 1,200 - 1,300 calories or so. I've lost three pounds. I think I would like to lose three more so that I weigh 160. I've had a few days where I ate more than that (including today), but I am mostly staying around those numbers.