Stadium Seating

Last night we went to an Eugene Emerald's baseball game.  My seat happened to be next to a woman who was quite big.  Whenever I find myself in stadium seats or movie theater seats, I'm always so happy to discover that I now fit with room to spare.  I couldn't help notice, however, that the woman next to me was spilling out of her seat.  As the game progressed, she commented about how uncomfortable she was.  I agreed that the seat was not super comfortable, but my discomfort came from the fact that the seat was hard plastic and my not-so-padded behind offerred no cushion between the plastic and my fanny bones.  We chatted a bit during the three-hour game and she mentioned she'd gone bowling that day and taken her dogs for a walk.  I realized at some point that she was seeing me as a thin person and she was very mindful of how large she was.  She wanted me to know that she wasn't lazy.  She'd been exercising, after all.  I wished there was some way to work into the conversation that I used to be fat so she wouldn't feel weird around me, but it didn't come up.

The game was fun.  The Ems won 11-0.  And I got a good reminder of where I came from and where I hope never to return to. 

I can't comment...

Have any of you had this problem?  A couple of months ago no one could comment on Blogger and I have been having this problem again for a couple of weeks.  I try to comment and it directs me to sign in.  I sign in and then try to post my comment and it directs me to sign in again.

Ugh!  Frustrating!

Stephanie - Hugs!

LD - Yeah for healthy babies!  I didn't feel kicks with my first pregnancy until well after 20 weeks.  I was worried, but it

Amy W. - I love you!  No special reason.  I just do!

Cat - Great tips!  You're rocking it!

Now will someone please fix Blogger for me so I can comment? 

Writing a weight-loss blog is like...

...a chore?  ...much more interesting when you're losing weight?

I used to write a few times a week.  Actually for the first few months, I posted DAILY.  I can't imagine having that much to say anymore.  Losing weight was exciting and it gave me lots to write about.  Maintaining weight is boring. 

Lately I haven't been losing anything.  It has been weeks and weeks since the scale went down.  The lowest I've seen is 165.4.  The week after I hit that number, I was back to 167.2 which is what I weighed on Friday.  I was still logging my food when I had the gain and there was no reason for it.  Pooh!  I have been kind of discouraged since then.  I even had some major activity like Father's Day weekend when we put a new roof on my house, but it didn't make any difference.  Wah!

So other than that there isn't much going on in my food life except I have quit drinking soda again.  I just don't like the way the carbonation feels in my stoma.  It makes me feel like I constantly have to burp and then when I do burp, I get an icky taste in my mouth.  So I've switched to ice tea.  That doesn't make for a very interesting blog post, though.

My girls and I spent the weekend goofing around in Salem over the weekend.  It was my first weekend off (other than roofing weekend) in several weeks.  We had fun.  We spent Saturday at Enchanted Forrest.  Here's a picture of me:

The last time we were there was last August when I was just over 200 lbs.  Here's a picture:

 

Binging...

By 2:00 PM yesterday, I'd eaten over 2,000 calories.  I had two bowls of Luck Charms, cheese and crackers, coffee and chocolate covered peanuts.  Why was I eating like that?  I'm not really sure.  Maybe it was because my girls and I had been traveling for the weekend so the rules were "relaxed".  Maybe it was just the stress of the last few weeks.  Whatever it was, I quit eating after I tallied my calories and saw how much I'd eaten.  I went for a bike ride.  I drank a bunch of water.  I think I'm over it.

In the past, I've had binges that lasted for days and days, weeks even.  I've had periods of time where I didn't give my diet a thought for months, even years.  I just ate whatever I felt like eating.  I wasn't exactly binging, but I also wasn't eating due to hunger.  This isn't the first time I've lost control since I had lap-band surgery, but luckily the events are few and far between.  I also have been able to get back to my regular healthy behaviors pretty quickly.  It is always a struggle for a couple of days post-binge because I have tons of cravings, but I will persevere.  I'll get through it.  I don't want to go back.  

Test...test...test...Is this thing on?

OMG!!!  I haven't posted for so long and I haven't been able to read any of your posts either.  I miss you guys!  I'm not dead.  I'm really busy with work.  I am working 13 days straight and my first day off will be the day I start replacing my roof (weather permitting). 

I'm still losing weight and tracking my food with My Fitness Pal. I'll try to write again soon!